Testing for FTP and LTHR

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

You're going to like the way you feel... I guarantee it.

If you are serious about training, it is imperative that you know your lactate threshold heart rate (LTHR). If you do not have a power meter and don't have $1,000 to spend on one, consider putting $50 in a jar every week for ~3 months. Stages power meters range from $700 (Shimano 105 or SRAM Rival) to $900 (Shimano Dura Ace 9000) and can be ordered for you by Chris at ProBike (tell him Buzz sent you). If you have a power meter you'll want to know your functional threshold power (FTP). The test procedure described here will provide you with both your LTHR and, if you have a power meter, your FTP.

In theory, your LTHR doesn't change. So if you don't have a power meter you can run this test once (or twice for verification) and be done with it. FTP, however, does change -- well, hopefully it changes, as that is the whole point of training. So if you train with a power meter you will need to test multiple times during the year to obtain your updated FTP values. There are many significant advantages to training with a power meter, which I will likely expound on in a future post. They include:

  1. Properly tapering and peaking for a race (this is a huge advantage, taking the guesswork out of preparing for your important events).
  2. Knowing exactly how intense, and how long, training rides should be.
  3. Recognizing the issues caused by heart rate fluctuations from being sick, not getting enough sleep, being fatigued, etc.
  4. Successfully performing training workouts, especially short duration intervals, without the hassle caused by the heart rate being heavily dampened (slow to respond to efforts).
There are a few methods for determining one's LTHR and FTP. The one described below is also known as the Critical Power 30 (CP-30) test and is considered to be the most accurate test you can do for LTHR and FTP. I recommend performing this test at least twice a year. You may decide to do more testing during the year to check for updated FTP values, but those tests can be shorter duration (read: easier) and I'll likely discuss the methods for those in future posts.

The Short Version

  1. Rest for a couple days.
  2. Warm-up for 20 minutes.
  3. Ride as hard as you can for 30 minutes.
  4. Cool-down.
  5. Your average heart rate for the last 20 minutes is your LTHR.
  6. The average power for the full 30 minutes is your FTP.
  7. Repeat at least twice a year.

The Long Version


Preparation. You don't want to complete this when you have fatigue in your legs; you want to be somewhat fresh to get accurate results. Keep in mind that your values for LTHR and FTP coincide with the best effort you can sustain for 30 minutes. In order to provide your best effort, you need to be fresh. You don't want to rest for too long though, because you will lose fitness and may experience "dead legs" on test day. I've found that two to three days of rest works well, structured like this:

  • Day 1: No riding.
  • Day 2: No riding.
  • Day 3: 45 minutes of easy spinning with three 30-second hard-effort bursts.
  • Day 4: Test day.

During these rest days you will also want to stay well hydrated, eat appropriately, and get some solid sleep. Take some time to set your computer up for the test. I recommend that you have it display Lap Time and Cadence. You don't want to try to maintain some set power value or heart rate -- you only want to focus on putting out your best effort. Of course, you will need to see Lap Time so you know when to stop, and it is beneficial to maintain a steady Cadence.

Other factors. It is important that you try to keep the outside conditions as constant as possible for each test. So if you tested in the morning after two rest days last time, don't test mid-day with no rest days this time. Cool weather is ideal for this test so I recommend testing in the morning. Find a good route and use it for every test. Ride the bike that you will use for the majority of your LTHR- or FTP-based training. Since you likely train while riding on the hoods (not the tops or drops), perform this test riding on the hoods. This test is meant to be done solo (no training partners). Having someone else to pace, chase, or escape from will give you bogus data. You want to be all alone, suffering solo for the duration.

Route. The ideal route for this test would be a 15-mile stretch of perfect pavement with no stops, no rollers, a steady 1-2% uphill grade, and no traffic. The most important aspects of your route are that it have no stops and minimal rollers. Grades in excess of 4% will give you slightly skewed numbers, so Mt. Lemmon is not an ideal option. The route that I have come to prefer for this test is south on Mission from Valencia. If you've done the Saturday Shootout you are familiar with this stretch of road (it is approximately 30 minutes from Valencia to the bridge).

Unless you live close to a good stretch of road for performing this test, you will want to drive to the testing location. You may find it helpful to bring some things with you; I usually take water bottles, recovery drink mix, a towel, and jeans & a t-shirt. This test, when done correctly, is brutal. Put in the extra effort preparing for it and you will get good results. You don't want to go through all this suffering and end up with questionable numbers.

Warm-up. For what equates to a 30-minute threshold workout I like to warm-up for 15 minutes. Mid-warm-up I do three 30-second hard effort bursts and then three 1-minute medium effort intervals with 30 seconds of rest between them. Your warm-up may need to be different -- you want to stress your body enough to prepare it for what will be a very difficult 30 minutes, but you don't want to stress it to the point where fatigue becomes a factor. When you start the test you want to already be sweating, but you don't want to feel tired.

Begin test. In the span of about one minute, steadily get up to cruising speed and a cadence of 90-100 rpm, then press your Lap button to start the test. You will be riding as hard as you can for 30 minutes, so maintain some control at the beginning to avoid running out of gas too early. You want to try to maintain the same power for the duration of the test. Maintaining steady maximum power output comes with experience so if it's your first time you will likely find that you either decrease power during the test and/or have some left in the tank at the end.

Cadence. My ideal cadence is in the 90 rpm range, but this is a personal preference. There have been studies done, however, with results suggesting that a cadence in the 90-100 rpm range is ideal for power production. If you feel uncomfortable at a cadence of 100 rpm you should include speed skills in your training sessions, but for this test you need to be smooth -- so if that means your cadence is 80 rpm, that will be fine -- just consider working on your cadence in future workouts so you are smooth at higher rpm.

Steady power. To help maintain constant power, every couple minutes I like to ask myself if I am pushing as hard as I can. If my answer is "no," I steadily increase my power output a little. I also like to ask myself if I can continue to maintain my current power output for another few minutes. If my answer is "yes," I steadily increase the power a little; if my answer is "no," I steadily decrease it a little; if my answer is "I don't know," I maintain that output and check again in few minutes. Any change in power output should be steady, over the span of around a minute -- you want your power graph at the end to be flat or rolling hills, not jagged mountains.

10-minute mark. You will likely be checking your Lap Time often to see how much longer you have to endure the suffering. If you do not have a power meter and are only testing for LTHR, at the 10-minute mark press the Lap button again. This is not imperative so if you miss it don't worry about -- it just makes post-test analysis of LTHR a bit easier. If you do have a power meter, do not press the Lap button here as it makes analysis of FTP a bit more difficult.

Suffering. You will be hurting -- don't give up. This test is incredibly difficult and you will want to quit. Expect the pain to be overwhelming but focus on pushing through it. This test is a great mental check for time trials. Use the suffering as a way to train your mind to continue to fight instead of giving up. Before the test, read Grimacing, or anything else that will motivate you to suffer greatly without backing off. Be prepared for this and endure it -- you will be rewarded.

Final minute. When your Lap Time shows 29:00 (or 19:00 if you pressed the Lap button at the 10-minute mark), you have just 1 minute left. During that minute, steadily increase your pace to your absolute maximum -- everything you have left -- completely emptying yourself. If you held the appropriate power output during the test, you won't be able to increase it here. If you are able to increase your power output by any measurable amount, you didn't push yourself hard enough during the test -- next time you do this test you need to suffer more so that at the end you have absolutely nothing left. It isn't easy to pour everything you have into 30 minutes, but it's what you are shooting for. You will never be so happy to see 30:00 (or 20:00) on your computer. Press the Lap button again to identify the end of the test.

Cool-down. Most likely your route is an out-and-back, so you will need to turn around to return to your car. Steadily decrease your pace, get control of your breathing, and make a safe turn. It will take you around 20 minutes to get back to your car. For the first five minutes of the return trip I recommend very light zone 1 spinning for recovery. For the remainder of the return trip I will usually do an aerobic endurance pace (heart rate zone 2). If this is your first test you won't know your zones yet, so just return at a pace that you could carry on a conversation during.

Analysis. When you've uploaded your data there are six things you are looking for: the values for LTHR and FTP, how well you held constant power, if you pushed too hard at the beginning, if you need to suffer more next time, and whether you need additional aerobic endurance training,

LTHR & FTP. To obtain your LTHR, simply determine your average heart rate for the last 20 minutes of the test. If you pressed the Lap button at the 10-minute mark this is easy to find. If you didn't, you will need to select the appropriate time span and obtain the average heart rate for that range. To obtain your FTP, simply determine the average power for the entire 30 minutes of the test. If you've previously performed this test you can compare your LTHR values to see if they match (they should). If they don't, it could be due to temperature, fatigue, being sick, etc. Determine which test you believe reflects you at your "best" and use the LTHR value from that test.

Steady power. Now take a look at your power graph. Does it stay somewhat constant or do you see fluctuations? For a proper test, your power (not necessarily speed) should remain steady. If you see much fluctuation, you would likely benefit from some pacing-specific workouts. A general workout would be to do three sets of riding for 10 minutes at your FTP and then 3 minutes recovering in zone 1, trying to maintain constant power during the 10 minute interval. Doing these intervals on rollers will help you learn how to change gears to deal with grade changes while keeping your power constant. Learning how to control your power is a huge help in both training and racing.

Aerobic fitness. Finally, you can get a pretty good indication of how "fit" you are by looking at your heart rate graph. Generally speaking, if your heart rate slowly increases over the duration of the test, your aerobic fitness is low and you would benefit from additional aerobic endurance workouts. This is referred to as "decoupling," meaning that your heart rate is decoupled from your power. You may find that this is the case at the beginning of the season, and therefore the reason for the Base period. If your heart rate remains constant for the entire test you have high aerobic endurance and likely should move out of the Base period and into your Build period (if you aren't there already).

Below are some of the FTP tests I've performed, with problem areas identified. The graphs show speed (top, blue), power (purple), heart rate (red) and cadence (bottom, pink).

FTP Test: Trainer

This test was performed on a trainer at the beginning of a Base period. You can see that (1) I started out with a power output that was too high, that I was unable to maintain and needed to back off. You can also see that (2) my heart rate steadily increased over the duration of the test, indicating a low level of aerobic fitness. Finally, you can see that (3) at the end of the test I was able to push harder and increase my power output, indicating that I had something left in the tank and could have pushed harder during the test.


FTP Test: Old Spanish Trail

This test was performed on Old Spanish Trail during a Pistol Hill ride towards the end of a Base period. You can see that (1) again I started out with a power output that was too high. You can also see that (2) performing the test on a rolling course can be problematic when tasked with maintaining a constant power output. Again, you can see that (3) at the end of the test I was able to increase my power output. Finally, you can see that (4) the route chosen was quite long and likely meant that the values I obtained during the test portion were low. A shorter route with no rollers would be preferred.

FTP Test: Mission

This test was performed on Mission, south of Valencia. This route is my preferred and almost exclusive stretch of road for FTP testing. Although this route is almost perfect for the test, you can see that (1) I still started too hard and (2) I still didn't go hard enough for the duration. There's always room for improvement, especially when it comes to suffering for 30 minutes.

If you don' have a power meter, you should perform this test at least twice in the first year. If you obtain different LTHR values from the two tests you may want to do a third test to really lock down your LTHR. Once you have it locked down, you may want to continue to re-check once a year. You should also consider purchasing a power meter.

If you train with a power meter you will want to keep a fairly close eye on your FTP. Your FTP will increase with training, so if you train consistently throughout the year you'll want to check your FTP every few months. If, however, your training calendar is March-May and September-November, you probably just need to check it twice (in March and September). Don't perform this test too close to an event that you want to be fresh for, as it will put a fair amount of fatigue in your legs.

I welcome any thoughts, suggestions, or questions you may have about this test, or any test to obtain LTHR or FTP. If you've performed this test and would like a second set of eyes to analyze your data I'm happy to help. If you'd like you are welcome to post a link to your Strava or Garmin ride in the comments area below.


Enjoy the smile -- for though your mind will tell you otherwise, it will not last long; it will fade.


Tabata Intervals

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Dr. Izumi Tabata

Type: Anaerobic
Duration: 50 - 75 minutes
Complexity: 3 / 5 (average)
Difficulty: 5 / 5 (very difficult)
Computer: 3-second power, lap time, heart rate

Tabata Intervals are named after Dr. Izumi Tabata, who analyzed high-intensity training effectiveness when he was a training coach for a Japanese speed skating team. In 1996 he published his findings from a study where two groups of athletes were given different workout methods and their fitness gains were measured to determine which method worked best. The study showed that "moderate-intensity aerobic training that improves the maximal aerobic power does not change anaerobic capacity and that adequate high-intensity intermittent training may improve both anaerobic and aerobic energy supplying systems significantly, probably through imposing intensive stimuli on both systems."

In short, HIIT (high-intensity interval training) is good. And the Tabata Intervals described below are fantastic at increasing anaerobic power as well as aerobic fitness. Don't get me wrong though -- Tabata Intervals hurt -- they hurt bad -- but man, they are so good.

If you have trouble in crits due to repeated accelerations, Tabata Intervals are a great way to condition your body to provide you with the power needed for those short stong burts. The short rest portions of each interval help you learn how to deal with putting out a hard effort after an insufficient recovery time.

The Short Version


Warm-up
3 to 5 sets of (
 - 8 intervals of (
 - - - 20 seconds max, 10 seconds rest )
 - 4 minutes recovery )
Cool-down

The Long Version


You'll want a solid warm-up before starting the intervals. I usually warm-up for 20-30 minutes (which works out perfectly for the route I use for the intervals). My warm-up consists of 5 minutes easy riding in zone 1, then 5-10 minutes in heart rate zone 2. For these Tabata Intevals, I like to add 3 or 4 thirty-second "medium" efforts watching my heart rate climb to LTHR (lactate threshold heart rate), recovering between each effort to let my heart rate drop to my zone 2 level again. The idea is to reach LTHR right at the 30-second mark, ramping up steadily each time. After those efforts I then ride for another 5-10 minutes in heart rate zone 2. Note that the values in the graph below will likely not apply to you. It represents my personal LTHR of 174 bpm, maximim heart rate of 193 bpm, and resting heart rate of 38 bpm. Your values will probably be different.

My warm-up for Tabata Intervals

You will complete 3-5 sets of intervals, each set taking around 8 minutes. You will want a stretch of road with a slight uphill slope and no stops for at least 1.5 miles. You want a route that has very little traffic, especially if you will be turning around for each set. I've found that Freeman works well.

The set consists of 8 intervals and then 4 minutes of recovery. I find that the 4 minutes of recovery is just about enough time to turn around and descend in zone 1 to start the next set. Look for traffic and be careful when turning around -- timing is not important, if your recovery ends up taking 5 minutes beacuse you had to wait for cars don't worry about it.

The intervals are 20 seconds maximum power, then 10 seconds in power zone 1. If using a power meter, the output you want to generate is approximately equal to your best power effort for 1.5 minutes (consult your personal power curve). You may find, however,  that focusing on sustaining a specific power value during these intervals is difficult at best -- so just concentrate on putting out a solid effort for each set. You don't really need a power meter to do these intervals, but it is extremely helpful for post-ride analysis and it helps "keep you honest" during the 4 minutes of recovery.

Stay seated for the duration and keep your cadence around 90-100 rpm during the intervals and around 70-80 rpm when recovering. You will need to pay close attention to gear changes to make this fluid, especially if the route you've chosen has grade changes. Don't be surprised when you are unable to catch your breath during the 10 second rests. They are not meant to give you full recovery -- they are meant to teach your body how to repeatedly accelerate to maximum power. The graph below shows power, not heart rate (which will be high, and stay high). Note that the values in the graph below will likely not apply to you.

One set of Tabata Intervals

If, after completing 5 sets, you feel like you could do another one, you aren't pushing hard enough. The first time you do these intervals you may go too hard for the first 20 seconds and have nothing left by the time you reach the 8th interval. With experience you'll get a feel for how hard to push on each interval to be able to last the duration (but not a minute longer). After completing the final 4 minutes of power zone 1 recovery, you may find that you benefit from at least 5 minutes of a heart rate zone 2 cool-down. I usually just ride the remaining 20 minutes home in heart rate zone 2.

Watch what you eat/drink prior to and during this workout, unless you enjoy puking on the side of the road. If you do these Tabata Intervals, please feel free to post a link to your Strava or Garmin ride in the comments area below (or if you have any questions or suggestions).


Cons... and Pros

Friday, October 25, 2013

I'm told they all have one, you just have to look for it

With all the pain, frustration, and  difficulties that result from getting rear-ended by an SUV while riding your bicycle... there are at least a few benefits worth mentioning (not that I would recommend the "windshield-headbutt to asphalt-faceplant" as a means of acquiring them).

Benefit #1: Teenager Mode


With the majority of the pain (and corresponding pain medication intake) occurring during the night, the mornings end up being a foggy haze reminiscent of the ones too-often awarded to my friends and I during our college years. While a hangover is no fun, whether it results from that party you should have left 3 hours earlier than you did, or some unfortunately-necessary Oxycodone taken at 3am -- it does mean that my alarm clock has been set in the "off" position for a couple months now. It means that I wake up when I can, which sometimes isn't until after I'm already hungry for lunch. I get out of bed, shower (if the wifey is home to assist me), get dressed, and get to work when I'm able to -- completely independent of the location of the hands on the clock hanging on my wall. It seems funny to say, but for a while now and for at least a little longer: I'm back in my Teenager Mode... I get to sleep in.

Benefit #2: Beach Bum


Being part owner of a mechanical engineering firm comes with certain expectations. At project kick-off meetings with building owners, architects, contractors, and the occasional interior designer, it is -- and always has been -- a given that when a mathematical calculation needs to be performed, I will be there -- calculator or slide rule in hand -- ready to immediately provide the correct answer. I am expected to turn in 10-months worth of work in 7 weeks. I am to reduce my fee twice while increasing my scope thrice. And I am expected to wear a short sleeve dress shirt with tie, slightly wrinkled slacks, miss-matched argyle socks, and of course... my pocket protector. Err... I mean, "a" pocket protector.

With the fashion accessory, aka "core brace," that I am required to wear 23.75 hours a day (doctor's orders, reinforced by the wifey), I have needed to hang up the dress shirts and opt for the weekend/vacation t-shirts. Now my clients can learn which rock bands I like, where I like to travel for vacations, and what year I graduated from the U. Additionally, if I am unable to escape the foggy morning haze prior to the wifey leaving for work, I must resign to wearing flip flops on account of my inability to put on socks or tie my shoes. It's almost like I'm back on the beach of Isla Kuanidup off the Caribbean coast of Panama. Almost.

Benefit #3: Captain I.P. Freely


Due to my doctor-ordered requirement to avoid bending over at all while the vertebrate heal, our entire household (at least for the time being) is subscribing to the 24/7-seat-up policy, which I haven't enjoyed for a little over 5 years now. Granted this benefit is likely to be the first one to go because 50% of the household is less than happy with it. And let me be perfectly clear: I am happily married going on a little over 5 years and much prefer the beautiful wifey over saving the 2 seconds lifting a seat any day of the week -- so I'm completely willing to lose this benefit when it comes time. I'll just enjoy it while I can.

Benefit #4: Rebirth


And last but not least, with my rear wheel and frameset sufficiently disassembled into a dozen or so pieces (read: destroyed), I am supremely blessed with the task of obtaining a new bike.

When I started cycling I noticed that I was always "checking out" other people's bikes. Even when driving around town if I saw a cyclist I would look to see what they were riding. At group rides I sometimes have trouble remembering names, but can always remember their bikes. For a while Evan was "the racer with the Fuji," Jason was "that guy with the Roubaix who used to have the Allez," Cody was "the guy with the CAAD who is also into mountain biking," and so on.

I've found myself in the exciting position to start completely over with my road bike; now armed with the knowledge I've acquired over the past year from reading magazine reviews, online forums and articles, friend's opinions, and most importantly -- my own experiences.

It's almost as if I get to choose my new "name" -- almost like choosing a new identity.

So what about you? What are you currently riding? What do you like about your bike? What do you dislike? If you were buying a new bike, what would it be? Feel free to comment below, I definitely appreciate your thoughts.


Grimacing

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Bike the Bluff, June 2013

You've reached that point. Or more accurately stated, you've arrived.

Your enemy did all that he could to prevent it, but you -- not your mind, not your body -- you were able to battle the relentless thought of quitting, the counterfeit "desire" to stop, to slow, to decrease, to fall short, to fail. You attacked yourself, and you won. Congratulations, you have been rewarded.

With the grimace.

Do not be fooled though, for it is not really a grimace. It is a smile. A mandatory smile forced upon your body, forced upon your mind, forced... by your soul. It appears distorted because the mind does not really want to produce it. It is a smile that cannot be faked for a photograph by saying "cheese," nor can it be avoided when thought inappropriate. Though your mind will tell you otherwise, it will not last long; a few minutes, perhaps only seconds. It cannot be given to anyone, nor can it be taken away -- it must be earned.

It is permissible for you to wear the smile temporarily after providing a worthy effort, after giving what is deemed the requirement, after sufficiently turning yourself inside-out. Treasure it, for it is not just a smile -- it is the best kind of smile -- it is the most genuine of all smiles.

This smile, despite what your mind tells you, is not caused by pain. It results from the realization that an extremely important achievement has been made; that progress has taken place; that you have become... better. You went 30 seconds faster, or perhaps an hour. You went 4 inches higher, or perhaps 1,000 feet. You went 30 yards further, or perhaps 20 miles. You pushed your limit and placed a flag in a place you've never been before. You've discovered new land. No... you've conquered new land. You aren't the best, but that isn't due to some complacent acceptance; it's through the understanding that your goal is not be become the best. No, you will not simply settle for "best." Your goal is to not to become, but to be... better. Your goal is not achieved next year, next month, or even next week. Your goal is achieved every time you are allowed to wear the smile.

Your enemy may have convinced you that progress ends with age, but this too is a lie. Progress continues, but with age it transfers away from the physical and ceases to be practice; no longer just a scrimmage. You will then, with age, apply that which you have learned in your youth; when you were intentionally seeking the smile.

The endurance you've achieved will not be needed for races. Your strength will not be needed for training. Your agility will not be needed for sports. Your fitness will not be needed for games. These skills will be used elsewhere. You will have transitioned involuntarily from amateur to professional.

Disappointment will not come from an overtime loss, but from a missed opportunity to do the right thing. Elation will not be from finishing a marathon, but from walking 20 feet with your daughter -- down the aisle. The labored breathing will not be from a difficult climb, but from the death of a parent -- and perhaps your spouse. The taste of blood will not result from a hard effort, but from a battle with a disease you never saw coming. The nervous feeling will not result from peering over the edge before dropping in, but from looking death in the eye and knowing that this time it will not be cheated.

You will wear the smile for new reasons, or so it will seem -- but the reality is that the reason is the same; you will have achieved something extremely important; you will have made progress; you will have become... better. Enjoy the smile, for though in those instances it was not sought after -- it was still earned.

Realize though that the smile is temporary; it will fade; and when it fades your goal will have moved away from you. It will have become 50 seconds faster, 5 miles further, 500 feet higher.

You have beaten yesterday's version of you, but now you are tomorrow's enemy...

and you will be attacked...

and you will be defeated...


for tomorrow you will be better.


SPP

Friday, October 18, 2013

The Scream (Edvard Munch)

I figured it would be nice to take a break from work for a bit; to relax at home laying around in bed with no real responsibilities; to sleep in and stay up late; to be lazy. Sure I had to deal with the pain associated with a handful of fractured vertebrate, a hole in my shoulder previously filled with asphalt, a patellar cartilage fracture in my right knee, and the extensive road rash associated with losing an SUV-induced battle with the road -- but I looked forward to taking it easy for a few weeks to recover. I thought I might even enjoy it.

I was wrong.

Physical pain seems to come in two forms, one of them being intended. When pushing hard on a long climb, pain is what we fight. We suffer as intended. The reason behind our intention varies. Get stronger, go faster, lose weight, keep up, win. We suffer because we know that it produces something. We don't immediately reap the benefits, but we believe they will come. We rely on past experience to trust that the suffering is not for nothing. We aren't enduring this pain because we enjoy it. We are betting on the come.

The pain I've experienced the past couple months has come in different forms. Morphine, Oxycodone, and muscle relaxers have done a somewhat decent job with the physical pain. However, there is no pill available to cover up the strange suffering of helplessly staring at a ceiling feeling like the world is leaving you behind. No prescription for the disappointment, frustration, embarrassment, and even despair that has been difficult to endure. Many times I felt like giving up, turning back, slowing down, stopping. I wanted the suffering to end. For a time I forgot that which I've told myself countless times pushing hard on the long climbs: you can do this, it's not much longer, push harder, keep going, breath, fight the pain, endure...

because suffering produces perseverance. (Romans 5:3)


Blog post #1 of (hopefully) many, devoted to inspiring others to suffer with intention.

Thank you for reading,
Buzz